“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil for though art with me; Thy rod and Thy staff they comfort me.” Psalm 23:4
I was running through the fields today and stopped to take a picture of my long journey with no one there. I was not afraid of my surroundings. I knew God was with me. I was enjoying the sunlight, sound, solitude and serenity. Yet in all of this I always feel this heaviness pressed upon my heart where my soul just cries out. I begin to feel this absence where no one else can fill but him. The tears sting my eyes and I feel all my soul shake at the hollowness that was left there. I ask “Why do I still feel this, Lord. Can’t you just take it away.” But even in that I know the answer already. It is always going to remain there. That place will only be filled by God now and forever. That is the place that was taken so that He could remind me of everything else I tried to do to fill it. It is not meant for anything or anyone else to fill but Him.
Often these points in my life I can only understand that even with all that we have, all that we live by and all that surrounds us, our inner souls were still created so feathery. It is meant for us to feel this way so we can cry out for Him. So that no matter how content we think we feel or for things we strive for in life, nothing will fill the depth of our souls like the way God can.
How does a king like David in all his glory, splendor and victories write this, “O God, You are my God; early will I seek You; my soul thirsts for You; my flesh longs for You in a dry and thirsty land where there is no water.” He had about seven wives, over 14 children, an immaculate home and an entire city named after him. In all of that, he always came to need God. Always! God was his support, his guidance, his path, his everything…God was his lifeline. This teaches us that no matter what we have, what we accomplish or where we find ourselves in life, there will always be a place where only he can fill.
Isn’t that the most richest and finest thing in the world! He is the piece that completes our puzzled lives.