I thank God for all the many writers that are freely sharing and being led by the Spirit to encourage others who may be experiencing an emotional mess. I would have to say that would be me on my worst days. Today I woke up missing a thing… It makes me sad. I did some research to see if “miss” was tied to emotions and it kind of is because it means “absence, loss & want”. This would translate to the feeling of sadness, anguish or even pain. For me that runs deep when I have to give up the one thing I miss the most. I feel the absence of that EVERY DAY and it hurts! It hurts me a lot. I try to remind myself of all the good things that I have going for me but that one lil thing was so impactful that it certainly puts a dent and I can feel it. My emotions go off the wall and then I find myself in a place where I think I am weak again. It was good to read that inspirational written by Jessenia Munoz, because that lets me know that God wants to use all that He can to remind me of my promise and not the problem. Sometimes everything around me can seem so contrary to that promise but I know I have to press forward. I have to dig even deeper to reach forward and look ahead to all that God has for me. It is getting past pain that is the hardest part for me and that takes time, too much of it. For day to day that can vary depending on the situation. I pray that God seal up every hole, every crevice and every area that is in WANT or that feels a loss. That is why King David with all his wives, concubines, children, money, powerful position, houses and more felt such an absence. There had to be a “one lil thing” for him too. He said “The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want” in Psalm 23:1. So I have to put these feelings in God’s hands and pray for the spirit of joy to OVERTAKE ME EVERYDAY so that I won’t feel an absence anymore! God help me!!! For I know that all the mighty men in the bible suffered in their weakest moments. Apostle Paul wrote “Rejoice always, and again I say rejoice” in Philippians 4:4 while being in a prison cell. Sometimes I find myself in the prison cell of my mind and I want an escape! I don’t want to be held captive any more by my emotions! No more! I want to be like the apostle Paul as he came to that realization in his walk with God where he knew the secret. I want to be an expert at walking in that secret. May the people of God all find that place where there are expert at finding that secret to joy and no longer an expert at being an emotional mess.
Christina Blessings to all that are viewing this. My name is Christina Cruz-Mendez. I am a Pastor at Mission United International Church in Yonkers, NY working along side my husband Juan A. Mendez Jr. Senior Pastor. We have been together for 25 years with 2 children that God has blessed us with. Makes us the family of four - "JusChrist4". I have been a Christian and active in ministry for about 17 years now. Through all the rocky and smooth roads in life I am eternally grateful that God has brought me this far in life to share with the world what He is doing in me, through me and for me.