This next blog is going to be very personal but I have to share it. I promised God I would share through pages and a pen…which now transfers so fast with today’s technology!
All my life I have always had something missing. I come from a broken home at an early age. We were the home that grew up with that huge absence…and to know this Father’s Day weekend how valuable that really is! My mom and dad had split when I was about 5 or 6 that detail I can recall vaguely except that I would feel that absence everyday moving forward. Not having a father figure in the home really does put a dent. Even with that fact, there will always be something missing in everyone’s life that no one or nothing can fill.
For my absence, I tried to fill it with other things such as men, alcohol, drugs, sex, money, working, shopping, friends or food…you name it, I tried it! But the fact still remains that none of those things would ever bring me the wholeness that I really needed inside. None of those things will ever satisfy the hungry heart…or the hungry soul.
Then I come to a point in this life and realize that absence is still present with me. 2015 a year of rest turned out to be a year of RESToration for me. I would come to a point where I discover the biggest enemy I had was still residing in me…called SELF! What was I fighting for all this time…what was I fighting against. Just confronting all these issues was the heaviest challenge and the deepest, especially when I know what the original cause was stemming from. Oh how important it is to have a father present in the home. And not only that but an integral one. A father that represents Christ. John 10:40 states, He is the Father, the Counselor, the Redeemer, the Deliver, the Great I Am, Alpha and Omega…He is everything from beginning to end!
I can relate with those that feel this absence, for my natural father still doesn’t know where I live!!!! But I love him still and wish the best for his life. Without any absence I would never know how much CHRIST DOES COMPLETE ME! How much I need this Father who is ever-present and with an unfailing love for me. Now I can walk in this new life and in victory. I no longer rely on the world to fill the void but to a Father that fills me up to an overflow. He is like a well… Just as Jesus told the Samaritan woman in John 4:13-14, “Everyone who drinks this water will be thirsty again but whoever drinks the water I give him will never thirst. Indeed the water I give him will become in him a spring of water welling up to eternal life.”
If you are a father, recognize how vital it is to be a part of your childs life. How much the impact is can put such a dent. Thank God He has come to fix all of that. For all that are broken He came to this life. To the fathers that are there to help usher their children in a strong faith based home… I commend you! Your role is so appreciated and worth honoring! As the bible reminds us to show honor to whom honor is due [Romans 13:7], you are celebrated on this day and every day you impact a child with your love and presence.
My apologies to any, if this is too profound but know that it is the truth that sets us free. Recognizing this truth has set me free, I am not ashamed. I do not walk with guilt weighing over me. I am here to share my story with transparency. What has He set you free from? Today I am free and I love it! I love what I found in having such a relationship with my heavenly Father to make up for everything that I have lacked on this earth. As long as it took, all of it was necessary for me to become the woman that I am today! Thank you God, for You have given the best for me to have this life free from all that had passed. You are the Daddy that gives the best gifts…John 3:16. ❤️ You have given Father’s Day love!