What a beautiful event today at “She Roars”, hosted by Evangelist Claudia Morales. It was amazing.  It felt so good to be there.  And I felt so good. So positive. So energetic again.  There was life in me today for real! I was super happy and just being the better version of me that I know exists!

I think that is what is roaring inside me the most.

Wow –because for how long am I going to be quiet?  How long am I going to be silenced?  How long should I be in a state of isolation against myself?

The message today brought so much insight.  Even after once again receiving not so good news.  I was happy.  I was good. I was in an atmosphere that was roaring!

And I asked myself –what is really roaring?

It’s when the enemy of our soul is telling us that maybe if we were something else we’d be accepted.  Maybe if we lost some weight we’d be accepted.  Maybe if we were looking a certain way, we’d be accepted.  Maybe if we tried a little better here and there we would be accepted.  Or perhaps if we didn’t make so many mistakes –oh yeah! We’d be accepted!

BY WHO!!!????

That is what is roaring the loudest! Just like Pastor Kim Pothier [Real Talk Kim] spoke today.  The four things that steal our roar –our territory –our identity!

1. Negativity
2. Self-Doubt
3. Fear
4. Procrastination

Yup–Yup–Yup and YUP! That would be it in a nutshell! Because I have done all those things and if not more.  To think that we don’t really matter when we are everything to Him! We are everything that He made us to be and that is so great. We can do everything that we put our hearts to do and what we have been created to do.

It just sucks when the things that have been roaring the most have been your own negative mindset.  When you have allowed yourself to be plagued by so much self-doubt.  The moments when you have allowed fear to snuff you out!!! When you have procrastinated because you thought you weren’t ready or good enough or much compared to everyone else! Oh come on! Those roars have been trying to tear you down mentally, physically, spiritually and emotionally.

That roar was stopping you and not helping you. We have allowed all those things to take territory.  Now we need to regain the control back! We need to quit magnifying every weakness, every lie, every thing that tries to attach itself to the womb of our spirit that has brought hindrance!

Now I am not an animal, not a lion, not an eagle, not a bear, not a dog, and not any pet.  I am also not a victim! I am a victor and certainly way more than a conqueror!

What I do know is that I am a powerful and mighty woman of God! A woman of virtue.  I am a woman of the Word.  Because no matter what happens –I get back up some how and some way which is THROUGH God.  I can no longer allow the roars of negativity, self-doubt, fear or procrastination to take territory.  I have to allow the power of His Word to dominate in every way!!!

Thanks for being real –women! AND the men that showed up to support.  It was beautiful. He’s working. And the “what” that roars the loudest is written.

God can do anything, you know—far more than you could ever imagine or guess or request in your wildest dreams! He does it not by pushing us around but by working within us, His Spirit deeply and gently within us.
Ephesians 3:20 MSG

Women! We need to rise up! We cannot be silent anymore! We are the storm! We need to live! We need to get up! We MUST move forward! Because everything we need is already within us. ❤

With Love,

Christina

Life’s rough.

I’m just waiting.

Things on standby been the theme.

I stopped for a quck cup of tea, read a verse and reflected.

“Hear my cry, O God; Attend to my prayer. From the end of the earth I will cry to You, When my heart is overwhelmed; Lead me to the rock that is higher than I. For You have been a shelter for me, A strong tower from the enemy. I will abide in Your tabernacle forever; I will trust in the shelter of Your wings. Selah”
Psalms 61:1-4 NKJV

Isn’t it so lovely that we can pray anytime, anywhere.

That’s where I chose. Because the standby for me has kept me in such a restricted position. Many times I feel like I’m gonna break or that I’m just really not cut out for this. Life… then I think about so much stuff.

Lead me to the rock that is higher than I, because God! You know what I needed, what I need and what I’m gonna need to make it through. It’s been filled with some sharp stuff but what can I say but that You know best.

You HAVE to keep me, You are what I got and who alone I can turn to. A shelter. A strong tower. A rock. A tabernacle. A place of real refuge especially when I have to let go. In order to go higher I have to let go of it all, because holding on is what keeps hurting the most. It’s exhausting.

Selah.

“Why would you ever complain,
O Jacob, or, whine, Israel, saying,
“GOD has lost track of me.
He doesn’t care what happens to me”?
Don’t you know anything?
Haven’t you been listening?
GOD doesn’t come and go.
God lasts.
He’s Creator of all you can see or imagine.
He doesn’t get tired out,
doesn’t pause to catch his breath.
And he knows everything, inside and out.
He energizes those who get tired,
gives fresh strength to dropouts.
For even young people tire and drop out,
young folk in their prime stumble and fall.
But those who wait upon GOD get fresh strength.
They spread their wings and soar like eagles,
They run and don’t get tired,
they walk and don’t lag behind.”
Isaiah 40:27-31 MSG

Don’t you ever ask too…. “Why God, when God, where God, how God?!?!”

Because I gotta know this is just a temporary situation now.

All these things here are TEMPORARY but You last. You are forever. You are good. You are my portion. You are my strength. You are my deliverer. You are my defender. You are my advocate. You are my healer. You are my help. You are my hope. You are my peace.

You are taking me places. As I close my eyes, I begin to open up my heart. More and more. Transition… it’s never really simple. I am seeing that nonstop. It’s fast and slow all at one, and not many will understand that suddenly perspective. But I am beginning to understand.

It

Is

Only

For

A

Season

Christina…. do you get it now?

I think I get it. You will keep me throughout the transitioning. I wanna be ready.

Whenever I am feeling the weight of my current situation I have to remind myself that this is all a transition into my next season.  Winter can’t last forever.  The transition is happening.  Even though I may not be able to see things on the surface the way that I want to and at the pace that I want it, I know that God is doing something underneath it all.  He is working a strong foundation for me to have the best success in my future.  Those are the things that always take the most time to produce the richest and finest results.

This is a temporary situation that I am in right now. And although it may not “feel” so great, I know that He is working on my behalf for my future.  That is why, what I do now in my today is that much more critical to be in step and in alignment with those plans.

It makes the scripture that much more alive in my life because I get tired.  Like any human. I get tired of waiting and working the extra miles in until I do finally arrive.  My mentor spoke some words of life into me this morning only to remind me –it is just for a small season.  A temporary season.  You are almost at that place where the way has already been paved for you.  The depth that you are creating now is working behind these scenes so that when the curtain is opened it will be the most amazing that I have experienced.

“But those who wait upon GOD get fresh strength.
They spread their wings and soar like eagles,
They run and don’t get tired,
they walk and don’t lag behind.”

It has been costing me a lot to wait during this transition. But I cant get tired.  As hard as it has been for me, more that I can ever express. I know I am going to soar someday. ❤

~Christina