You don’t have to be closed in. You are not a statue or a stone, you are human, you are real, you have a heartbeat and sometimes just like us all…it aches! It is okay to be real. It is OKAY to seek that which will make you stronger when you need it the most.
I am so thankful that God put in my life VERY positive and spirit-filled people. They accept me and love me with open arms always. There are no conditions on the love that they have for me and that is why I am not ashamed to call them F A M I L Y! But in all of this I have learned so much within the last few months of some pressing trials in my life….there’s more!
I am a wife, a mother, a full time worker, a pastor, a leader, a teacher and I wear all these hats. So with that being said I would nicely state that I am someone that still needs lifting. I am actively seeing a professional counselor for two years now. And coming back to NY from a recent retreat in Florida, I realized I still needed more in life. I needed transparency. I needed a renewal and an awakening within me. God wanted me to truly let down all the walls so that He could reveal all the things He had for me.
- An amazing relationship with GOD.
- A family that loves me unconditionally.
- An ability and a gift that keeps me alive and moving in the Body of Christ.
- A body of sisterhood among my church that is really blossoming into a powerful women’s ministry.
- A newfound passion to revive a hidden talent in me that will bring a continual renewal in my life.
- A consistent relationship with wise counsel and real friendship.
- A strive for activities that will keep me focused to do all this and more.
In all of this I can truly say that this experience has been life changing. From the moment I had an encounter with God to the moment I came back to my role here at home, work and church. I have come to recognize that when I need help, I simply ask for it and from the right people God has placed in my life. They are there and always have been. It is just sometimes we are so stuck behind this wall we cannot see that truth until the walls come tumbling down… Then you can actually see life all a lot clearer. Thank you God for tearing down all the walls in my life. You came to my rescue to destroy what was always trying to destroy me.
Many thanks to Clark for reminding me always “There are pastors that preach the word of God and pastors that live the word of God.”
Many thanks to my family and friends for being there for me when I need them the most, helping me to get through all the dark days and celebrating with me in the light days. And even if I shed those tears, there is always that one that catches them and smiles right back at me –YOU GOT THIS C(H)RIS… you GOT this!
In honor of CERM! ❤ (A Dedication to Someone Special to Me)