God, You’re My Friend Right?

God, You are my friend right?

Closed in…I feel it.

I need someone to talk to.

Someone I can trust.

Someone that knows me.

Someone that will listen.

Someone that will guide me.

Especially when I need it the most.

This is so difficult. Hard to handle.

You’re my friend right?

I think You are… based on Your word…You stick closer than a brother.

I need more than a brother now.

I need some support and serious guidance.

Especially when my mind goes crazy because of THINGS!

Things happen and they go out of control, but why?

Why does this happen? Why do the little things stir up a pot to become big things?

Is it even necessary?  I know there is a way…a better way…
You are that way and I am running to You this way because it is the only way that I know.

I have experienced so much in this life.

I hate the saying, “Trust NO one” but I am getting to that point.

Who do I trust?

Who can I turn to?

Who can help me here? In the darkest hour when good occurs something quickly comes to distort.

I have great friends and I prayed for them ALL.. I didn’t want anyone led in my life that wasn’t sent by You…especially when I came to the Light… that Light was You so I knew. I would ask You for even this.

One time I wrote with a tear stained face in a cold hallow building…the sermon was continuing… I begged You. I said, “God please! Send me someone or I will die.”

I was sent the best thing ever. One I thought was a friend and was not. It was an enemy…to buffet me. To destroy me. To kill me…what was I sent? Jesus I need a friend. From the depths of my soul I cry out and I need You more than anything in this earth. For all else has fallen and failed. I promised You that I would give it all. Until the point that I thought I would die for real. I pleaded, “Keep me alive!” And You kept me alive by Your word and by Your promise…I trusted You when I could trust none. You know the depths of my soul. And it bleeds. It bleeds so bad… that it hurts! I can feel the pain still. And I know You know… I know You know me…I know You have the answer.  For I cry out…I need that love from You… the love from the “bestest” friend in the world that won’t destroy me but will BUILD me and will KNOW me… every ounce of me. For when it hurts so bad I know You are there… You are the friend.

You are the One and there will NEVER be another…I know that from the depth of my being.

My heart is overflowing with a good theme;
I recite my composition concerning the King;
My tongue is the pen of a ready writer.
Psalm 45:1

For my tongue is the pen of a ready writer and I will write this way to You because You know me and this is the only way I can express me… to save some including myself! This brings me life. It is a haven for me and a place of rest. A place that I know will be recorded for good. It is my place… YOU are my friend.

This is my cry, this is my prayer. for when all else dies…this is all that will live. You are my friend.

I think in all that I have learned is that… to be stripped of all until I knew that You were IT.

To whom then will you liken God?
Or what likeness will you compare to Him?
Isaiah 40:18

“To whom then will you liken Me,
Or to whom shall I be equal?” says the Holy One.
Isaiah 40:25

Oh …Lord there is NONE like YOU!!!!

You were the only One and from the very beginning.

My Friend indeed.

My Source.

My Deliver.

My Redeemer.

My Counselor.

My Life.

My Helper.

My Encourager.

You are it all.

Now I know… Jesus You are my friend.

I need someone to talk to…I need my friend God, You are it, right!

Yes, You are.

 It’s okay, I love You too… thank You for being YOU!

PROVERBS 18 (NLT)

Unfriendly people care only about themselves;
they lash out at common sense.
Fools have no interest in understanding;
they only want to air their own opinions.
Doing wrong leads to disgrace,
and scandalous behavior brings contempt.
Wise words are like deep waters;
wisdom flows from the wise like a bubbling brook.
It is not right to acquit the guilty
or deny justice to the innocent.
Fools’ words get them into constant quarrels;
they are asking for a beating.
The mouths of fools are their ruin;
they trap themselves with their lips.
Rumors are dainty morsels
that sink deep into one’s heart.
A lazy person is as bad as
someone who destroys things.
The name of the LORD is a strong fortress;
the godly run to him and are safe.
The rich think of their wealth as a strong defense;
they imagine it to be a high wall of safety.
Haughtiness goes before destruction;
humility precedes honor.
Spouting off before listening to the facts
is both shameful and foolish.
The human spirit can endure a sick body,
but who can bear a crushed spirit?
Intelligent people are always ready to learn.
Their ears are open for knowledge.
Giving a gift can open doors;
it gives access to important people!
The first to speak in court sounds right—
until the cross-examination begins.
Flipping a coin can end arguments;
it settles disputes between powerful opponents.
An offended friend is harder to win back than a fortified city.
Arguments separate friends like a gate locked with bars.
Wise words satisfy like a good meal;
the right words bring satisfaction.
The tongue can bring death or life;
those who love to talk will reap the consequences.
The man who finds a wife finds a treasure,
and he receives favor from the LORD.
The poor plead for mercy;
the rich answer with insults.
There are “friends” who destroy each other,
but a real friend sticks closer than a brother.

Jesus… YOU ARE MY FRIEND!

Thank You for that, for now I know You MORE!!!!