I wonder how many times Abel brought that good sacrifice before Cain gave up on love?
Was it really only one time that caused Cain to be so angry? There must have been a series of events over time that caused God to question Cain to face his reality. The bible says in Genesis 4:3, “In the course of time…”
“Why are you so angry?”
“Why is your face downcast?”
How many times did Moses hear the crowd griping with him before he struck that rock.
Anger that caused Paul to split ways with Mark.
Disciples asking how much should they forgive their own brother… 70×7.
Can I be honest…? I think I have been angry for so long that no matter how many times I try to snuff it out, it comes back worse!
I’m just so angry! Maybe I am even angry at God. I am angry about life sometimes. At a lot of things, situations, persons, places, things, realities, circumstances, struggles and the way things turnout. The list won’t quit.
So I did.
And just when I did…literally just when I wrote it out again… I give up!
Here is what I found:
Love never gives up.
Love cares more for others than for self.
Love doesn’t want what it doesn’t have.
Love doesn’t strut,
Doesn’t have a swelled head,
Doesn’t force itself on others,
Isn’t always “me first,”
Doesn’t fly off the handle,
Doesn’t keep score of the sins of others,
Doesn’t revel when others grovel,
Takes pleasure in the flowering of truth,
Puts up with anything,
Trusts God always,
Always looks for the best,
Never looks back,
But keeps going to the end.
1 Corinthians 13:4-7 The Message Translation
And then I wept…
I gave up. Probably not the way God wants me to handle situations right… Definitely not the way. More like those selfish, stubborn and humanistic ways and then I read that.
I really wept.
Rise above Chris! Rise higher. That book was SOOO my whole life. This is just a chapter that was purposely left out. The anger part that I have to leave out and let go of for 2019 approaching. I don’t wanna be angry. I wanna BE that love too. I want to let go because it is seriously draining me. You never realize how much one can hold on and hold on and hold on… until you’ve wept enough.
Anger can get the best of us. Ruin things, opportunities, moments, relationships, marriages, friendships and anything good that belongs to us!
God– yank all anger away. Help me to rise higher inside all those hidden places that try to eat up my flesh and soul. I don’t want to be angry.
LIP. Shut these lips. Love. Is. Patient.
Love is kind….
Love won’t quit! It won’t ever shut down. It won’t run away. It just won’t ever give up. Not EVER! So why do we?
Maybe it’s just me.
January 1st, 2019 at 10:36 pm
I just read this post and it is not only you. It is me too. I can relate to all that you say!! It is all so real and intense so much so that I applaud your candid way of sharing. If I can be honest. It leaves me at a place where I question how do I keep it real without allowing it to govern the truth of who I am in Christ Jesus. Good post!!