April 27, 2018

Multitude of Words

By Christina

When you want to say so much but you can’t!

“In the multitude of words sin is not lacking,
But he who restrains his lips is wise.”
Proverbs 10:19

“A fool vents all his feelings,
But a wise man holds them back.”
Proverbs 29:11

So many times where I think I could have said this, I should have said this.  Maybe I shouldn’t of said this or too much of that. Then my mind just never really knows much but the anguish it is causing to itself.

The only words I could find that would help me through the soulish realm in the nights and days of turmoil thought processing is this—WORSHIP!

Thank you Jesus.

Love you Jesus.

You are here with me now Jesus.

You never leave me nor forsake me Jesus.

Words of wisdom. Sometimes we just got to stay quiet inside and out. It’s so hard to hold back the thoughts, to sit on them or swallow them. Who can I think of that probably thought too much but the psalmist David.

Psalm 6:3
My soul also is greatly troubled; But You, O Lord—how long?

Psalm 11:1
In the Lord I put my trust; How can you say to my soul, “Flee as a bird to your mountain”?

Psalm 13:2
How long shall I take counsel in my soul, Having sorrow in my heart daily? How long will my enemy be exalted over me?

Psalm 16:2
O my soul, you have said to the Lord, “You are my Lord, My goodness is nothing apart from You.”

Psalm 16:10
For You will not leave my soul in Sheol, Nor will You allow Your Holy One to see corruption.

Psalm 23:3
He restores my soul; He leads me in the paths of righteousness For His name’s sake.

Psalm 25:1
[ A Plea for Deliverance and Forgiveness ] [ A Psalm of David. ]
To You, O Lord, I lift up my soul.

Psalm 25:20
Keep my soul, and deliver me; Let me not be ashamed, for I put my trust in You.

Psalm 30:3
O Lord, You brought my soul up from the grave; You have kept me alive, that I should not go down to the pit.

I think he knew about that soulish realm that we should not allow to reign or have dominion.  This is the part that wants to govern our every move but it cannot.  We must be led by the spirit! That is why he kept praying on it.  He prayed every time he reached that point.  And those were just a few–for in the search for the soul in the content, the Psalms had many others.

Relatable truth! For there is nothing that could bring us the quick deliverance like the multitude of words that are available through the scriptures.

They are life.

Much more than we could ever say.

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April 23, 2018

Unnoticed

By Christina

“And when he had removed him, he raised up unto them David to be their king; to whom also he gave their testimony, and said, I have found David the son of Jesse, a man after mine own heart, which shall fulfil all my will.”
Acts 13:22

Unnoticed …. is a notice to God.

It is funny how David was a young child, last of the batch, leading and loving God unnoticed!

Not even his family noticed him.
He surely wasn’t favored.
Wasn’t exceptional.
Wasn’t ready.
Wasn’t recognized.
Wasn’t even really remembered!!!!

I mean his own father brought out “all the sons” right?

—1 Samuel 16:10—

He showed the best of the best.
The finest of his fleet, not little ruddy David!

Nope, not that one!!!

But God said, “THAT’S THE ONE!”

Wow! How awesome God is. When everyone is passing you by, even those you love so much. Family. Friends. Fellowship.

You are nowhere but God is looking at you…

That’s the one!

Yeah! Him! He has MY HEART!!!!! I love him!
I need him! I choose him! I select him! I appoint him and anoint him now so everyone can see. I am making him favored, exceptional, ready, recognized and someone to always remember.

All those that didn’t wave at David in the field.
Didn’t say good morning, didn’t say good night.
No hello, no goodbye, no how are you.
They passed right over his feed.
Again and again for 16 years of his life.

What a strong stamp of rejection they were placing over him. Until he recognized who he was IN GOD! I can imagine David saying:

“I don’t want your armor Saul!
That’s you gear!

I don’t want your crown Saul.

I don’t even want your crowd or the “glory” that follows of people!

But God I want. And I will be more undignified then all. I know what it is like to be unnoticed. I know what it is like to be passed over profusely and disgustingly!

BUT GOD! That is where my victory is at. So I am going to worship Him like madness!!! I am going to give him then my heart… Let’s see. He notices that about me.”

God took notice of the one who was unnoticed!
And made him the most passionate king! The one even with the weakness because God appointed him PRIOR TO THE GREAT BIG FALL!

Wow! Only you God!
Only you……

“But now your kingdom must end, for the Lord has sought out a man (little David in the field) after His own heart. The Lord already appointed him to be the leader of His people, because you have not kept the Lord’s command.”
1 Samuel 13:14

Isn’t it nice to know that there is One that will never leave you unnoticed. ❤

Sincerely,

Christina

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April 16, 2018

A Different Rose

By Christina

“Indeed, I have inscribed [a picture of] you on the palms of My hands;
Your city walls [Zion] are continually before Me.”
Isaiah 49:16 Amplified Translation

I’m the type of person that doesn’t do things because everybody else is doing it.

I can be last a lot. Sometimes late.  Slow in my ways.  I am not always hasty.  But I can be productive… strategic and ready to do something right on it’s time. Right when it is necessary.

I am my own pace setter and I am comfortable with that. I don’t think that I am one to be tolerated but the one to be appreciated and loved by the ones God placed before me.

The struggle can come when I actually realize just how different that I am.

I compare in my mind somehow –I am assessing, analyzing and evaluating.  Just because I am so different that begins a process. Mainly called –THINKING TOO MUCH!

Who am I? What is my purpose? What am I doing that is making a mark?

That is why I love to write.  It is one of those things that separates me.  I have my own thoughts and here they are.  People can relate with what they need to, perhaps learn something at the moment or can just pass over what isn’t specifically for them.  At the end of the day they are my thoughts.  It is my life and it is my story.

The same way you have your own. 🙂

“Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, The days fashioned for me, When as yet there were none of them.”
Psalm 139:16

That word was written for all of us.  It speaks to our identity, our individuality, our authenticity and our uniqueness.  We are different.  There is a lot of the same in this life.  Lots of go-getters, pacesetters and there are those that are just not.  Different in their own way too.  Just know it doesn’t make you less important! Less valuable or less loved.

“From far away, the Lord will appear to his people.
The Lord says, “I love you people with a love that continues forever.
That is why I have continued showing you kindness.”
Jeremiah 31:3 ERV Translation

There is something different also for me and you to do.  Something that can only be done in the precise location that we find ourselves. We use what we have–whether it is resources, time, love, family, faith, friends, or extending a hand to help someone else more in need than yours.

You can do something. Make it happen.  Go big right?! LIVE LIFE! Go out there and enjoy the weather–oceans–boardwalks, bike rides, coffee shops–different people and times. Find a better view. Get up and do something NEW! Create your day–as you are called to create and live that courageously.

So maybe all the flowers coming together for the dozen can look the same–rest assured if you took down all the petals, each will be different in their own way.  So never doubt your value and significance because it is great.

There is such a huge value in the way in which God created JUST YOU!!!!

With Love,
Christina

~ Dedication to R.S. ~

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April 15, 2018

This Restless Place

By Christina

I will remember my song in the night;

I will meditate with my heart, And my spirit searches…

PSALM 77:6 AMP

I wish I could find the thing that speaks right to my mind right away.

I am looking at books, more scriptures, inspirational quotes and devotionals… click out, still the same grapple.

I mean I am a Christian but can I be honest …

Sometimes I find that I can’t find it even in the Word.

I don’t know where to go or where to turn.

I know the Word of God brings deliverance.

There is no buts in that.

Just a mind that gets cluttered and cannot even find rest in the written clear way if that makes any sense!!!

I wake in the night.

Attacked with a sleepless fight.

I’m wrestling with something internal.

It wakes me.

Disturbing my peace.

Robbing me of this silent time in the night that would rest my mind and anxious thoughts.

But that’s the thing.

The thoughts creep in.

I want a friend but then no.

I want a counselor but then no.

I want to cry and then comes the downpour,

Inconsolable, unexplainable and unapologetically.

The tears start pouring out.

I’m alone again.

Alone in my thinking.

Alone in my world.

Alone in my own silent battle.

And a weeping night.

Could this pass?

Because the reality is I just want to get the thoughts OUT!

I don’t wanna “talk it out” you feel me?

That’s annoying sometimes.

Then I sit and cry some more.

I talk to God, cry to God and reason with Him alone.

Then I just pray to keep my calm because this restless place is taking all my rest.

It just never makes sense.

What can I say…

Pray through the restless places.

Cuz even there He will find us,

Even if we still feel lost.

“My voice rises to God, and I will cry aloud; My voice rises to God, and He will hear me. In the day of my trouble I [desperately] sought the Lord; In the night my hand was stretched out [in prayer] without weariness; My soul refused to be comforted. I remember God; then I am disquieted and I groan; I sigh [in prayer], and my spirit grows faint. Selah. You have held my eyelids open; I am so troubled that I cannot speak. I have considered the ancient days, The years [of prosperity] of long, long ago. I will remember my song in the night; I will meditate with my heart, And my spirit searches: Will the Lord reject forever? And will He never be favorable again? Has His lovingkindness ceased forever? Have His promises ended for all time? Has God forgotten to be gracious? Or has He in anger withdrawn His compassion? Selah. And I said, “This is my grief, That the right hand of the Most High has changed [and His lovingkindness is withheld].” I will [solemnly] remember the deeds of the LORD; Yes, I will [wholeheartedly] remember Your wonders of old. I will meditate on all Your works And thoughtfully consider all Your [great and wondrous] deeds. Your way, O God, is holy [far from sin and guilt]. What god is great like our God? You are the [awesome] God who works [powerful] wonders; You have demonstrated Your power among the people. You have with Your [great] arm redeemed Your people, The sons of Jacob and Joseph. Selah. The waters [of the Red Sea] saw You, O God; The waters saw You, they were in anguish; The deeps also trembled. The clouds poured down water; The skies sent out a sound [of rumbling thunder]; Your arrows (lightning) flashed here and there. The voice of Your thunder was in the whirlwind; The lightnings illumined the world; The earth trembled and shook. Your way [of escape for Your people] was through the sea, And Your paths through the great waters, And Your footprints were not traceable. You led Your people like a flock By the hand of Moses and Aaron [to the promised goal].”

‭‭PSALM‬ ‭77:1-20‬ ‭AMP‬‬

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