Baby Bella… I am just flying back home to New York from Florida and all I can think now is, “Wow! What an amazing weekend to spend with our family and also get to meet the new addition to the family… Baby Ezrabella!” She is beautiful indeed and a gift from God. Holding her for the first time was such an experience and an immediate outpouring of love.
Behold, children are a heritage from the LORD, The fruit of the womb is a reward. (Psalms 127:3 NKJV)
She is such a precious reward. Light hair, bright beady eyes and light skin with a smile that can light up your world. Also a bouncy and active little thing… She is super cute. I see how much she is lighting up their world. Mommy loves her a lot and smothers her with a mothers sweet love. Ezrabella loves her mommy and she adores her daddy as he cradles her too in a perfect way. There was a point that she cried uncontrollably only to be fed and held by the one who birthed her. I felt so bad that I could not help at that moment.
We are like this too… All throughout our Christian walk. Infancy stage to toddlers, childhood, adolescence, adulthood, midlife and late life. Although I tend to think there will always be a side of us that will be like a child. We grow but the heart pangs remain. This is where hidden tears seep through, where hunger surfaces that no one else can satisfy, where our hearts longs to be held by the ultimate and highest love.
This is the part where only the love of the Father can lift us and uphold us.
This is where we become totally dependent upon him. Just like baby Ezrabella. When it came time for mommy nothing else mattered. Nothing else could appease her. I felt helpless trying to assist, calm & soothe this crying infant. But she only wanted her mommy. I understood that. I said, “Hold on Bella… Mommy is on the way to get you! Just hold on a little bit!”
With God we hold onto the One who never leaves or forsakes us [Deuteronomy 31:6]. Not for a moment will He leave us. We may not feel it but we KNOW it! That is the point of a heightened and a deep relationship with our heavenly Father. This intensifies over time… It becomes more intimate. An inner knowing that Emmanuel [God is with us] is that close! He abides in us! That is amazing.
So I also shared with my closest sister in Christ… I have never been so close to Him! Never! Prayer is different. Reading His word is different. Worship is different. Ministry is different. Home is different. All has changed and been impacted by His love. This made my world different. I needed this change and this awakening. I just didn’t know how much until I was near losing it all… My mind, my health, my home, my family, my friends, everything… I wanted to leave all behind and not exist here. But God saw that and He rescued me!!! He came to my rescue…He came to my aide. Psalm 116:6 states, “The Lord preserves the simple; I was brought low, and He saved me.” Now I am in His arms. Just as baby Bella immediately stops crying in the arms of mommy… Surely this same way He has calmed and quieted my soul.
Like a weaned child…
Surely I have calmed and quieted my soul, Like a weaned child with his mother; Like a weaned child is my soul within me. (Psalms 131:2 NKJV)
Isn’t this a beautiful relationship to have? As a mother myself, I know parenting can have difficult moments, strains and pressure but the love just intensifies through these growing stages. Bonds are held stronger! So this bond that God keeps with us will never break… Even when we are growing. He is with us EVERY step of the way! I thank God that He allows us to experience natural bonds here with our loved ones. Those are unbreakable in God.
Being so far from my family is difficult. I cry every time I go in the room to say goodbye to them in the wee hours [red-eye flights]. It hurts me every single time and never fails because I know we are going to have another long period before we meet again! But I rest inside knowing God has them covered. That He has purposed all things this way. They are His children too.
God looks upon us all and calls us His children… Like baby Bella… Daughter you are beautiful to Me for I created you [Psalm 139]. There is no better love like this. Hold on, He is right there… Always! Don’t lose sight of the One that will forever uphold you. We rest in this truth! ❤️ In a perfect peace for He has it all in His hands.