Selfish Sight

imageI looked and all I could do was selfishly take in the sight. I didn’t think of the past, I thought about my present, I thought about my purpose and I thought about His presence in my life. That is what mattered to me most at that moment. Perception and perspective of God’s very presence. Who was He to me? How much did I walk beside Him, even when I thought I wasn’t as close, I found myself actually closer!!!

I’m aware.

I can see Him in this.

I can feel Him all around me no matter what was going on. Moses must have had that same conversation like that repeatedly.


The LORD would speak to Moses face to face, as one speaks to a friend (Exodus 33: 11, NIV).

Lord, I’m grateful that I can enjoy the same kind of personal relationship with you that Moses had. Through Jesus, I’m able to approach you not just as my heavenly Father or the God of the universe, but also as my friend. I can come to you at any time and know you will be ready to hear from me.

Whether I’m walking, driving, working, or relaxing—whatever I’m doing—you meet me where I am. You welcome my honest thoughts, my deep conversations, my questions, my praise reports, and my simple chitchat about my day-to-day happenings. I’m delighted that you choose to reveal your heart and thoughts to me as well. I treasure your love and friendship, Lord God. Thank you for the intimacy we share.

In what ways do you enjoy friendship with God?

Raindrops From Heaven

Gentle Reminders of God’s Power, Presence and Purpose by Twila Belk

That is how I talk with God. I walked on the strip of Key West Florida and I stood with Him alone. Prayed. Cried. Looked around me. Appreciative of my surroundings. Acknowledging my conditions. Accepting my purpose with Him.

I didn’t want to be the one with writers block but I was. With less words, mainly sight. I took it all in. I am extremely  grateful to have the opportunity to be in a place that I have never been and own it with God. I treasured the moments. I savored them. I soaked them in and dove out into the deep within me. I am unafraid. I will pursue what He has for me and be more intentional that when I get to have intimate times like this, I will revel in them. I am not going to feel guilty about that, it will be my selfish sight when I look up!

That is what Moses did, David did, Abraham did this … Now I have my moments too, I am taking them by force and not going to hold back on this MOST IMPORTANT relationship in my life.

Take in those selfish moments of just you and the God that created and controls this universe. 

About Christina

Blessings to all that are viewing this. My name is Christina Cruz-Mendez. I am a Senior Pastor at Mission United International Church in Yonkers, NY working along side my husband Juan A. Mendez Jr. Senior Pastor, currently residing in Canton, Georgia. We have been together for 29 years with 2 children that God has blessed us with. Makes us the family of four - "JusChrist4". I have been a Christian and active in ministry for about 22 years now. Through all the rocky and smooth roads in life I am eternally grateful that God has brought me this far in life to share with the world what He is doing in me, through me and for me. View all posts by Christina

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