I have been doing a lot of reflecting this month with some extra days off that have been so refreshing for me. Much needed, after months of preparation and planning for major end year events at church. All is good though. It has been worth it all.
I remember the prophet Joseph Samuel speaking over my life, “You are going to be so busy for the kingdom of God!” And yet none of those words have fallen to the ground.
All right with me.
I am in this power book called, “Rooted” by the founder and pastor of Jesus Culture. His name is Banning Liebscher, whom has now become a great author to me. How important it is for us to have our roots so deep in Him. Another word spoken over my life, that my roots will be so deep in Him. That brings me peace and it calms my soul. Just as the author chose to use Psalm 139 as part of a reflection in his book.
Great Psalm. God knows me best. More than anyone else. And it took me some time to realize JUST HOW MUCH!!!
I go back over the pages of life journals and see how all the words were captured. I am able to marinate back on where He has taken me.
I am going to say honestly that I was always a person starving for attention. Somehow lost in a busy and dark world. There was very little light. Many limitations. Perhaps too much. I had to find some way of being. Became so tough yet sensitive inside. I tried being such a bad one basically saying it so nicely. But it is true. It was how I behaved with others and more so myself. And for whatever reason that I had lost that covering at such an early age, God brought me one by the age of 17.
He took two dark people who He saw a light in. People of calling and purpose and connected them, even if it seemed so disconnected.
Only God does what He does and He knows why.
I would say that I made many choices and many other people have blatantly walked out of my life because I have refused to give them all of me! Please understand that doesn’t belong to anyone BUT GOD! So if people are fine with some of me then we are in a good place! I cannot give that right to anyone on this earth but to the One that sits on the throne and still reigns in me.
Relationships don’t fix you, God fixes you!
We cannot expect from people that which only God can give!
You learn that when all else has fallen! When all else has walked away. It was never about rejection but about God’s protection over your life. He was always saving us from falling into a ditch in which WE have made.
“Whoever digs a hole and scoops it out falls into the pit they have made.” Psalm 7:15. New international Version