Season Of Simplicity

Hmmm.

Unarmed.

A season of simplicity.

I think this is very much what I have been in deep radical search for.

Inside my mind is screaming most days.

I feel like a crazy person.

Like where’s my balance?

Where is the quiet piece of me????

Anywhere?

I feel like most times I’m so riled up inside.

Does that make any sense?

I wanna yell at myself like…. “Shhhhhhhhh! Be quiet! Shut up! Be still sister! Relax!”

But it’s so funny because the moment someone else tells me to relax I go completely insane and pull out a more unrestricted version of Chrizzy!!! Lol

Ughhh what’s my problem??

This is definitely unarmed!

Unsafe. Unrealistic behavior.

Good thing is that I am learning…. I AM NOT THE ONLY ONE!!!!!

I thank God for all the transparent women I am discovering along this “quiet” season I forced myself to take! I don’t even know how I mustered up the courage or strength.

I definitely didn’t get much buy-in on this one.

But you know who KNEW I needed it more?

Yes. God. My Father.

My loving caregiver. Protector. Mentor. Counselor. Friend. He really pulled me, prompted me and pushed me to a place to calm the soul down even though I was screaming inside all the way through.

Go figure!

Is it okay to say I need to focus on me right now?

At the same time of having the highest calling to be there for others, how was I going to take care of me?

BREAK!

Take a break before you BREAK!!!

Get armed again. Prepare for a greater armor because right now I am unarmed!!!!

And that is alarming. An alarm that only my Father can handle. I’m too much!!! You are too much!!!! We are these wild beings inside with a huge drive to DO! Then He finds a way to make us sit. 🙂

See I am not the only one ☝️.

Whew!

Thank God for the Shauna Niequist writer.

For the Nicki Koziarz author.

For the Julie Winter expert.

I’m not the only one.

I just finished my second book yesterday and now I read. It’s my haven.

I write one, read one. Then I realize even more why we have these hyper and overactive thoughts.

Because we are writers!!!! Articulators.

Our own intriguing and authentic version of an artist.

I’m going to absorb this “simple season” and find the best ways to internally process and prepare for this next stage of life.

Read

Pray

Write

I like that!

I like that a whole lot!!! ♥️

“Be still and know (recognize, understand) that I am God. I will be exalted among the nations! I will be exalted in the earth.” PSALM‬ ‭46:10‬ ‭AMP‬‬

“Behold, God is my helper and ally; The Lord is the sustainer of my soul [my upholder].” PSALM‬ ‭54:4‬ ‭AMP‬‬