What About You?

So what about you Christina? What’s going on with you? You been so quiet.

That is what I got today and I am. I feel like a blank page sometimes. Not knowing all the answers. Contemplative. Deep in thought as per. Wondering what’s next and simply trusting God. I love that I am here but it has been the first time in a while that I felt a hole in my heart.

We need to shine so bright that when we are no longer there that absence is felt.

My daughter came up to finally visit us for the first time since we moved here and I can freely say that.
Her and her husband joined us for the first week of spring and it was amazing. I worked still but every other opportunity was spent with them enjoying every laugh and every moment that we could maximize.

You can do so much in 7 days and how quickly they go by. Once they left I drove away with such a hollowness. Even in the most loveliest place I find myself now, I felt the absence. It was a familiar feeling, especially when I think of precious time spent with loved ones. I know these feelings have to be managed properly so I don’t go way off into a dark place but I do miss them a lot.

I know God has a purpose for all things and what I truly need to do is pursue the One that has the ultimate plan for our lives. I have the time now. I am scared. I am nervous. I am thinking a lot of what and how to do things but I am going to embrace each day and make the most of it just like I did when the kids were down here. I am going to continue exercising at my pace. I am going to cook creative and healthy meals. I am going to read, write and pray daily. I am going to work productively and on these terms.

What about you Christina? As I said, I don’t know all the answers but what I do know is that He has given me grace sufficient for this day and will continue to do just that. I can’t be anxious. I can’t make something up. I can’t go on a rampant thinking anything less of where I am or where I am going. This is actually the best place I have ever been at in a long, long time.

I just know that God’s got me. Yesterday, today and tomorrow. That’s my peace. That’s what I am about.

“So don’t be anxious about tomorrow. God will take care of your tomorrow too. Live one day at a time.”
Matthew 6:24 TLB

About Christina

Blessings to all that are viewing this. My name is Christina Cruz-Mendez. I am a Pastor at Mission United International Church in Yonkers, NY working along side my husband Juan A. Mendez Jr. Senior Pastor. We have been together for 27 years with 2 children that God has blessed us with. Makes us the family of four - "JusChrist4". I have been a Christian and active in ministry for about 19 years now. Through all the rocky and smooth roads in life I am eternally grateful that God has brought me this far in life to share with the world what He is doing in me, through me and for me. View all posts by Christina

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