Dear Pastor’s Wife,

You are not just a wife of a pastor—you are a pastor.

In fact, you have the strongest calling upon your home.

You are necessary.

You are a crown.

You are most excellent in every way as I have designed and prepared you to be

But I got to tell you.

It will not be easy.

I sent my Son—My one and only Son to pave the way.

He left this message and said “IN THIS WORLD YOU WILL HAVE TRIBULATION

BUT BE OF GOOD CHEER…FOR I HAVE OVERCOME THE WORLD”

There will be many times that you will have to walk alone.

You will have to sit alone.

You will have to engage and even run alone.

But in that alone—I am there beside you and I need you to remember that PLEASE!

Don’t chase people! Attract them!

The ones that need to be a part of your life shall be.

You will see many types of things in your life time—many go and the real ones remain. In your pursuit you will get hurt.

In your patience you will gain strength.

Learn to walk with ME every day.

Learn to talk WITH Me every day.

Learn that I AM YOUR BEST FRIEND, your Father—your Husband—your Lover—I am your Comfort, I am your Strength, your Rock, your Fortress. Putting anything else in place of where I belong will only make you feel the VAST difference immediately—for there is none beside Me.

I also need you to know how important that you are to Me.

How beautiful, how precious.

When I think of you—that is always—I am forever smiling inside.

You make Me move on your behalf.

Because of My deep love for you.

You are already OK.

You are already destined for GREATNESS!

You are living that out.

Parallel to that purpose will be pain—but the POWER that I release to you in the midst of that pain will be your antidote.

You will love great—move great and BE great because I have called you to be the PASTOR’S wife.

I am the SHEPHERD.

I am THE PASTOR—so your calling is being MARRIED TO ME! You are MY wife! So nothing and no one will separate us.

Just do what I tell you to do, go where I show you to go…say what I give you to say because they will be the deepest and the most prophetic pieces of life that must be demonstrated THROUGH YOUR LIFE.

With Agape Love,

Your Father
Your God
I am yours and you are mine.

Sometimes I feel like my life is on auto-lock, just like this iPhone screen. You stare at it for information, updates, news and more. With no activity of under a minute, my screen begins to fade and it goes dark. There is no more light. I can’t see a thing.

On the road that I take this seems to be how life functions for me. There is light but with any idle activity quickly there it will fade into darkness and I can’t see a thing. I know that we need the dark for so many reasons. Most importantly, that we really appreciate when we come to the light. Most cases things go dark for a reason–it strengthens us!  That is why the auto-lock is set to preserve the device so that it can last longer.

I came across this devotional today and it was right on point for my current situation. I do know that I have the spirit of perseverance because I am waiting. I just need to learn how to dance on the dark days.  And when the days get darker–strive to conquer. Time to think like a warrior.

KEEP YOUR EYES ON ME!
Waves of adversity are washing over you, and you feel tempted to give up. As your circumstances consume more and more of your attention, you are losing sight of Me. Yet I am with you always, holding you by your right hand. I am fully aware of your situation, and I will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you are able to bear.
Your gravest danger is worrying about tomorrow. If you try to carry tomorrow’s burdens today, you will stagger under the load and eventually fall flat. You must discipline yourself to live within the boundaries of today. It is in the present moment that I walk close to you, helping you carry your burdens. Keep your focus on My Presence in the present.
“No temptation has seized you except what is common to man. And God is faithful; he will not let you be tempted beyond what you can bear. But when you are tempted, he will also provide a way out so that you can stand up under it.”  1 CORINTHIANS 10: 13
“Jesus Calling” by Sarah Young  

I feel those waves of adversity–and when I do the waves of tears become uncontrollable. The pangs of pain that I feel in every bone in my body shake the life out of me. Yet the times of night watch prayer are increased. This is where I become still in His presence. This is only a light affliction that will pass by. There is too much to fight for and enough Word in me to see me through. In the back light of these days I will find the One that sustains me.

There was a time that all I cared about was shoes. Shoes and shopping. A closet full of emptiness. It became packed with all the latest and the greatest. I would spend, spend and spend, spend. Leaving my soul to feel so spent!

All this upkeep to be this darling diva and all it did was cause me the darkest depression.
Im so glad it’s  no longer a phase or some overtime maze to keep jumping through hoops for some simple recognition.

Now it’s all about wearing the best 👠 shoes, those of peace. Those I wear them well and not about spending much but about being much. I didn’t need fancy shoes to keep a confidence, make me feel special, wanted, sexy or important. The shoes that I wear now I can wear all day long and no longer cause me pain.  These shoes bring me to my purpose in Him!!!! For every step I take in His peace brings me closer.

I can’t cater to confusion. I just won’t because I do know I am too authentic for that. I know my worth. I also know that this life is not my own. I’m the hangman after the one Man that has always been after all of my heart.

I also don’t live in regret. I live in Christ and Christ lives in me. That redemption I need 💯 and nothing less than that. I live in peace, just as He says abide in Me and I in you…. we remain in His love.

“You keep him in perfect peace whose mind is stayed on you, because he trusts in you.”
‭‭Isaiah‬ ‭26:3‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“Abide in me, and I in you. As the branch cannot bear fruit by itself, unless it abides in the vine, neither can you, unless you abide in me.”
‭‭John‬ ‭15:4‬ ‭ESV‬‬

“As the Father has loved me, so have I loved you, now remain in My love.”
John 15:9

“and, as shoes for your feet, having put on the readiness given by the gospel of peace.”
‭‭Ephesians‬ ‭6:15‬ ‭ESV‬‬

Sometimes discouragement, depression and despair try knocking on the door!

They come together in these three to apply force to get in strategically and effectively!

But the word of God reminds us:
“Guard your heart more than anything else, because the source of your life flows from it.”
‭‭Proverbs‬ ‭4:23‬ ‭GW‬‬

We can’t allow any of that in.
We can’t provide any entertainment for it.
We can’t even ask for it to come again some other day. Because any entertainment equals empowerment.

The door must be shut.
The pathway must be closed.
The guard must be vigilant. Always ready for the provisioning that it is going to take for us to KEEP focused!

We Follow One Course Until Successful.
However that be.
However we keep that.
We must stay remained in Him.
Rooted and grounded in Him.

“So that Christ may dwell in your hearts through your faith. And may you, having been [deeply] rooted and [securely] grounded in love,”
‭‭EPHESIANS‬ ‭3:17‬ ‭AMP‬‬

We must not only be rooted in Christ but DEEPLY rooted! Beyond the surface, so that when discouragement, depression and despair try moving our way, our roots are so deep that we are completely secure and unaffected by it! That we are not moved by any of the negativity and doubt! We stand firm and secure, guarding our hearts!

We never stop praying because we trust that the only things knocking at our door are opportunities, hope and a purposeful future that is ahead for us. Those are the best things knocking at the door.

Bye bye discouragement, depression, despair, doubt and discontentment!

Hello to my blessings! ❤️