I am always reflecting on just how much I need God in my life. How much I need Him as my cover. I was walking today and thought wow women always seem to have some sort of heart issue the most. Yet I reflect on how the Psalmist wrote in Psalm 23:1, “The Lord is my Shepherd, I shall not be in want.” For if he had the Lord present with him through his life, why should he have a “want”. He is covered in every way. All the covers we need to be strong in the Lord and in the power of His might. Everyone has this matter of the heart. We need a cover.
How much those words do bring meaning to my life. For it is God that is covering me now like a shield. He is my cover [to place something over or upon, as for protection, concealment or warmth].
Through God I am able to recover [to get back, return to a normal state of health, mind or strength].
With God I have been able to discover [To see and get knowledge of, learn of, find out; discern, notice or realize] the why I am, the who I am and the whose I am. I belong to God.
And finally I can say that in all of my lifetime that God was able to uncover [to lay bear, disclose, reveal, remove the covering] of anything in my life that was such a hindrance to me. Just as a wound exposed needs the air to bring on the covering of a scab for protection and new growth – is the same way God does with us when the wounds are uncovered. We uncover so we can get back the real cover we need.
The covering of God.
With that covering we can do so much. I saw the movie, “Southpaw” and the agent had to remind the fighter,
“Every time you thought you couldn’t get up….You got up!” And this is true. He took on the next fight. Kept it moving.
For all the blows of life that come to us in life, He reminds us that He is our shield. We just get back up EVERY time! “But you, Lord, are a shield around me, my glory, the One who lifts my head high.” Psalm 3:3
He covers us. He lifts us up. It is a new time in life for rebirth and growth. New places and new ventures. He makes all things new…that is His promise to us.
All I can say is I am amazed to see all the ones around me growing too. Through good times and bad this is what we call really pushing through! A leader among leaders is what we shall all be and I can’t express enough how the words of many have been such an encouragement to my life. How those powerful words have impacted me! There are so many times I share a word too and I feel every word in that sermon. I lived every word… people have NO idea just how much and I wish I could share ALL of my painful process without distorting the minds of people. But it is that mind-distorting thing that only my God knows all too well. In time yes, I will give more and that is why He leads me to this platform. I want to share and need to but just know that this process is PAINFUL there is no doubt about that one. But we all find our purpose in that pain…we all find God’s presence in that pain… and we will all find our POWER that God gives us in that pain! Sometimes we can feel so powerless over our situation, but that situation is PERFECT because that is the place of complete control in God.
I finished reading this 12 Step recovery book/bible… it is not that we all have experienced alcohol or drug addictions but that we become addicted to something! That some THING brings us through that process over and over again… remember an addiction is ANYTHING that you are enslaved to a habit or practice something that is psychologically or physically habit-forming, LIKE narcotics, to the extent that its cessation (complete stopping) causes severe trauma. Maybe you were addicted to a drug, a drink, a relationship, a friend, or any lifestyle apart from Christ…what ever that had you feeling high and comfortable on a high horse…It is only a matter of time that you come down to reality, the “honeymoon phase” is over, the high is gone, the moment has ended, when you lost everything and have nothing left. It is there at this moment that God meets you!
I read something that I wrote months back during my trauma. I had to make a sacrifice. I had to surrender all.
I stated, “I hate to do this, but God loves it.” This just reminded me. I must stay the course.
Remember that trauma stage, this is NOT a bad thing. From where God took you. Just remember it well, so that you are familiar with the stronghold and will be able to conquer it even more so if it tries to come back. Read 1 Samuel Chapters 22- 30 to study and observe the life of this man David… he suffered MUCH but his victory was AMAZING!!! And that can be us too. As for myself I have no followers… I have sisters, I have family, I have disciples, other leaders to bear the burdens with and I know I am not alone. Just as God has led me here to this point to know this. This is my life now, a surrendered one! And if He had to strip of all that to get me here today then so be it. I have no choice and when I have no choice I make the commitment. I need no more but God and He will lead me to and through the rest! I had to go through the covers. So that I can experience the ultimate.
Thank you God.
And to the ones that mean SO much to me. My family and friends that continuously encourage me–
Thank you for being a part of this now 🙂