She couldn’t stop but cut herself.
Pulling down the sleeves, no one can see.
At night she couldn’t sleep.
The bags under her eyes, no one can see.
She had another drink, placed in her coffee mug.
Carried on the day and no one can see.
She carried off at evening, into the black of the night.
She didn’t come home until dawn.
For she was so withdrawn.
She stumbled in the door, yet no one else can see.
She spent her days intoxicated and all her nights in tears.
She barely put herself together, why even brush the hair.
A total mess in frumpy clothes, and no one else can see.
She took some from the plate.
She took her hand to pull it all before it could digest.
All she did was wash her face so no one else could see.
She woke up in the bed. A stranger by her side.
She took her clothes and ran ahead so no one else can see.
So many things to try to alleviate the pain within.
For when no one else could see, God wanted her for Him.
Now the Lord saw that Leah was unloved,
and He opened her womb…
Something about God seeing all the things that man does not. For this woman named Leah was one that lived unloved. She was not the most favorable, not the most beautiful and not the one given in the eyes of her husband. But God took a special note on all of her disadvantages. He took note of her pain. He saw her when no one else did. And for that He blessed her womb and gave her something in the interim to fill the gap for what was missing in her life.
There always seems to be something missing. That is why people run off and do so many other things to fill an aching void. But that void is only going to be filled by God Almighty. He will be all that we need every day. There is no reason to keep running off. That alone takes a lot of effort. Then we come to realize that there is still the present void. For no matter what we try to do, nothing else will satisfy it. Leah had to come to this realization when she came into her fourth child–for then she named him “Now I will praise the Lord!”
So Leah conceived and bore a son, and she called his name Reuben; for she said, “The Lord has surely looked on my affliction. Now therefore, my husband will love me.” Then she conceived again and bore a son, and said, “Because the Lord has heard that I am unloved, He has therefore given me this son also.” And she called his name Simeon. She conceived again and bore a son, and said, “Now this time my husband will become attached to me, because I have borne him three sons.” Therefore his name was called Levi. And she conceived again and bore a son, and said, “Now I will praise the Lord.” Therefore she called his name Judah.
How many times does it really take for us to realize that God is waiting for us all throughout our struggles. She named her last son Judah. Just as we know that the tribe of Judah was favored by God. This was also the place that David conquered first and became king. David wasn’t known for winning one battle – he was known for winning MANY. He was a conqueror. This is the stance we need to take. In every situation (high or low) we seek God through it all! Don’t frown upon your situation anymore. Everyone has something they have to encounter and conquer. We all have our battles –but they can be won! Every single time. Just cry out when you need to. It is okay. Instead of seeking a call for help by harming yourself or other destructive manners – try looking at the attention that is geared to you all along from GOD!
Cries Always Go Out To Him
God has just been moving about in my spirit to share writings about salvation, rescue and help. I don’t know who these are going to impact but I will just continue to do this in faith as He leads and guides me. I know there is a hungry heart our there –desperate to hear a word from the Lord. It is not over. God is looking at you. He will intervene on your behalf. You have to believe that if you cry out, He will respond! For He hears the cries of the righteous – and that you are in His sight.
In my distress I called upon the Lord, And cried out to my God; He heard my voice from His temple, And my cry came before Him, even to His ears.
The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears, And delivers them out of all their troubles.
I will cry out to God Most High, To God who performs all things for me.
My soul longs, yes, even faints For the courts of the Lord; My heart and my flesh cry out for the living God.