Painting “Be Still”

imageIs this too personal?
This is for Dad, so maybe it is.
I didn’t know what to do.
Truly! I went out last night and had amazing laughs! That was like medicine. God is giving me peace. The doctors advised of my dads cancer as progressive stage 4. I immediately want to RUN over there but I am so torn with many other things and trying to prioritize God Over Everything. And still I want to be there! But I also don’t want to go alone this time because, we have to do more. I woke and wrote the following at 3:48am ….

Beside a verse that states John 14:18 “I will not leave you as orphans, I will come to you.”
So this tells me God will come to my situation because truly there are things beyond our control especially with timing.

They are alone, the doctors provide facts during their assessment of my father (a compromised liver and failing kidneys with tumors spread up to the lungs)!


Like, what can I put on hold? I don’t know what to do God! I don’t know!!! I can be at peace HERE, be in prayer service, help those in my community within reach but WHAT ABOUT MY FAMILY? What do I do with my husband, kids, mom, job here what do I do? I keep asking.

I love to laugh and be at peace but there is something UNSETTLED! They are dying inside. Lord, help me to make the BEST DECISION POSSIBLE!
Help me make it!

My only brother told me once through gritted teeth, “You travel the world, minister to the lost and look to save souls! BUT WHAT ABOUT THE SOULS OF YOUR FAMILY?!?”
I wept uncontrollably as the words pierced my soul! What can I DO!?!

Just put me where it COUNTS! Help me make the BEST DECISIONS God.
There and here…. ALL AT ONCE!
Ummm, I can’t possibly do that right, but God did!!!
Psalm 46:10 “Be still and KNOW that I am God! ”

And so I waited…. Report today, the medicine is WORKING!
Report again, it won’t work for long!
Only God makes things WORK AT THE RIGHT TIME! He is the one that controls time, not I.
Lesson learned…
Be still, Oh My Soul.
God’s got this and WILL LET ME KNOW when to move.
It is to family I go. Taking off!
I will get to personally give him the painting. This has certainly been a journey.

{Selah} Pause In His Presence

God, You’re such a SAFE AND POWERFUL place to find refuge!
You’re a proven help in time of trouble–
More than enough and always available whenever I need you. So we will never fear even if every structure of support were to crumble away.
We will not fear even when the earth quakes and shakes, moving mountains and casting them into the sea.
For the raging roar of stormy winds and crashing waves cannot erode our faith in you.
Pause in his presence
God has a constantly flowing river whose sparkling streams bring joy and delight to his people!
His river flows right to the city of God–Most–High, into his holy dwelling place. God is in the midst of his city, secure and never shaken.
At daybreak his help will be seen with the appearing of the dawn.
When the nations are in uproar with their tottering kingdoms, God simply raises his voice and the earth begins to disintegrate before him!
Here he comes!
The Commander!
The Mighty Lord of Angel-Armies is on our side!
The God of Jacob fights for us!
Everyone look!
Come and see the breathtaking wonders of our God.
For he brings both ruin and revival.
And he’s the one who makes conflicts to end throughout the earth, breaking and burning every weapon of war.
Surrender your anxiety!
Be silent and stop your striving and you will see that I am God!
I am the God above all the nations, and I will be exalted throughout the whole earth. Here he stands!
The Commander!
The Mighty Lord of Angel-Armies is on our side!
The God of Jacob fights for us!
Psalm 46 The Passion Translation

About Christina

Blessings to all that are viewing this. My name is Christina Cruz-Mendez. I am a Senior Pastor at Mission United International Church in Yonkers, NY working along side my husband Juan A. Mendez Jr. Senior Pastor, currently residing in Canton, Georgia. We have been together for 29 years with 2 children that God has blessed us with. Makes us the family of four - "JusChrist4". I have been a Christian and active in ministry for about 22 years now. Through all the rocky and smooth roads in life I am eternally grateful that God has brought me this far in life to share with the world what He is doing in me, through me and for me. View all posts by Christina

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