My Own Language

imageI can cry in front of You,
Confess my madness,
My frustrations,
My history,
My likes, loves & dislikes; any jibber-jabber or random thing.
I can be the fully flawed version of me and find You anytime I come up to check, even when I feel like it or bluntly when I don’t.
I’m human.
Fluctuating… Fighting… Fierce when I wanna be!
I’m just a woman that is searching harder now to find Jesus in my daily routine and scheme of things.
To be pointed in the path that indicates HERE!
In the places of your nothing I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN EVERYTHING!!!

I will be found by you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back from captivity. I will gather you from all the nations and places where I have banished you,” declares the LORD, “and will bring you back to the place from which I carried you into exile.”
Jeremiah 29:14 (New International Version)

Thanks for that.
When I feel like Moses, Jonah, Job, David, SAUL, Peter, Paul or when I feel like me. The battered version or the blessed version.
Me on a good day. Me when I can find You.
Me when I know You are always going to be my shield and buckler. When I know You have done so diligently to protect, provide, guide and propel me right into Your presence.

I am okay with that. I am going to be more than okay letting YOU be YOU and me being the one found by You. Everytime I look, search or ask, I find you.

I am Your child. You are more than sufficient for me. From the beginning to the very end!

Everyday You are speaking to me through these powerful pages that meticulously talk of my process, rehabilitation and LETTING GO! I am finding my own language of getting to know You more as You completely know all of the real me.

Everyday You speak through the holy pages of sovereign scripture and in prayer. Details, direction and the dynamics of Your kingdom are there.

If you can read the fine print, here you go. By Melody Beattie for 7/31!



About Christina

Blessings to all that are viewing this. My name is Christina Cruz-Mendez. I am a Senior Pastor at Mission United International Church in Yonkers, NY working along side my husband Juan A. Mendez Jr. Senior Pastor, currently residing in Canton, Georgia. We have been together for 29 years with 2 children that God has blessed us with. Makes us the family of four - "JusChrist4". I have been a Christian and active in ministry for about 22 years now. Through all the rocky and smooth roads in life I am eternally grateful that God has brought me this far in life to share with the world what He is doing in me, through me and for me. View all posts by Christina

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