I met you at the conference in Charlottesville; I started reading your book the same day that you tossed it on my lap as you were speaking at the conference on Elizabeth in the Bible. I read it in two days. I wept, I stood up, I curled up with it in my bed, I lifted my voice to the Lord, I personally understand every word and gut wrenching sentiment of your book. I have survived the unthinkable as well, even death at my door. I found myself in every page. Your words Christina, ring our mercy and strength. I thank you for your book. Love and prayers…
It is testimonies like this where I can feel that peaceful affirmation that when I sowed it–it was right! I love sowing my books–sowing the words that God gives me. Because every storm we face tells a story. It paves the way for others. I am sure many of us would wish that we wouldn’t have to struggle. We want everything easy, quick and given to us with no real effort. That is the ideal. But it doesn’t really happen that way. In fact some people struggle even more than the average struggle.
I was speaking with my new beautiful boss and she tells me this….
“The struggle is where you learn!”
I said, “Wow! I am writing that down. That was a deep statement!”
Yet it is true! We all struggle and in those places of our struggle, He leads us through it so that we can grow through it. That is what I know and that is what I have learned on my own as well. It is nothing that I could have learned had things been so easy for me. They never were!
At six –I had no dad at home.
At seven –we were already conformed to a life of poverty, struggle, government dependence and roaches.
At ten –I was already made fun of by every person in the school so I never could feel comfortable with who I was.
At fourteen –I was already introduced to the “hit & quit” over someone I just randomly met a night before.
At sixteen –I already ran away from home to return with a sexually transmitted disease.
At eighteen –I was already pregnant right after High School graduation.
In my twenties –I was still partying and getting high. I was still depressed and still hurting.
In my thirties –after somewhere meeting Jesus at the tail end of twenties, I would learn that Church was really not the “thing” that would keep my saved!
In my forties –I would learn that after much death, darkness and drama that I needed a serious encounter with the God of the Impossible in my life. So I was Elizabeth too! I was the 88 year old that basically had no movement of life in me. Always left last and by the wayside and on the bottom end of life.
I kept going moment to moment, day to day, week to week and year to year only to discover that when you do that aimlessly you will always experience even MORE loss.
And all through that–what I do know now…… I got to say it…. WHAT I DO KNOW NOW! Is that God is my God! He is my King and He is my everything. He is my friend. He is the One who sustains me. He is the One that has kept me and He truly is the One that has been my Defender in every way possible –all through the impossible dark days and sleepless nights of my life.
There He would find me and there is where I would learn that only in the struggle would I have the deepest roots that I have ever had in Him. So I must say –just like the woman shared such a powerful testimony. I now know that the words He has given me perhaps will make some want to stray more from me, but for the majority I know they are going to touch the world! ❤ I am at peace with that. The struggle is where I learned how to tell others about the greatest One of ALL!!!!
Jesus knew they had questions to ask of Him, so He approached them.
Jesus: Are you trying to figure out what I mean when I say you will see Me in a little while? I tell you the truth, a time is approaching when you will weep and mourn while the world is celebrating. You will grieve, but that grief will give birth to great joy. In the same way that a woman labors in great pain during childbirth only to forget the intensity of the pain when she holds her child, when I return, your labored grief will also change into a joy that cannot be stolen.
I have told you these things so that you will be whole and at peace. In this world, you will be plagued with times of trouble, but you need not fear; I have triumphed over this corrupt world order.