Category Archives: Healing

Pillow and a Latte

I absolutely love my quiet home time.

People must think I am really a nerd, maybe too quiet…. possibly boring?!?! Lol

I am not sure. But it is so me. I love this. I like hearing nothing but the crickets, birds or outside nature. It’s so peaceful.

So here is what I will share with you in this quiet moment. I hope you can find yours too.

I have been on a spiritual journey a little more deeper because… can I be honest?

There is something in me that I truly dislike that surfaces when I am less than connected to God. I find a whole lot of cruddy things. Such as anger, jealousy, frustration, temptation, emptiness, depression, confusion and so many other things stirring in my mind and in my flesh. Who wants that? We’ll definitely not a saved and sanctified believer.

Here’s what the bible says about that:

So get yourselves ready, prepare your minds to act, control yourselves, and look forward in hope as you focus on the grace that comes when Jesus the Anointed returns and is completely revealed to you. Be like obedient children as you put aside the desires you used to pursue when you didn’t know better. Since the One who called you is holy, be holy in all you do. For the Scripture says, “You are to be holy, for I am holy.” 1 Peter 1:13-16 (VOICE)

So now, my beloved, obey as you have always done, not only when I am with you, but even more so when I can’t be. Continue to work out your salvation, with great fear and trembling, because God is energizing you so that you will desire and do what always pleases Him. Philippians 2:12-13 (VOICE)

I came back from a powerful weekend to find myself in a powerful pity party! That sucks! I can’t keep going with an internal war of battles that I know will never lead me to growth. This means so much. Many unspoken words now gone straight to a sovereign speaking God. That is beautiful! That’s best! Because many times we share things, try things and do things… even if it may be that you are trying to be helpful and it’s not.

It’s a job for God. I know one ☝🏽 thing. I need Him to intervene in my life in every way. I want to stay in communion with my King. I want to stay less out of the mess. I want to live where He wants me. I want to work where He plants me. I want to love who He has given me. I want to eat what He portions for me. I want to write what He shows me. I want to say what He gives me. I want to go where He leads me. I want to do things better. Even if one day is better than the rest, I know progress is chasing me because of this transition.

Three weeks later, I am in a better place. Really. With everything that needs to be here attached to my life. For every other negative thing that tries to attach itself to the womb of my spirit MUST BE ABORTED.

That’s what I found. That’s where I am. I will continue in my quiet time with my pillow and latte still making sure I do the genuine things that matter most. Listen. Learn. Love.

I never thought I had all the answers, so maybe in the silence I will keep learning who I really am and make peace with that. I come with a lot. I am a lot. But it’s only because I know there is a God pushing me to be better. It is all a wonderful lesson of love. A love that lasts longer than a latte. ☕️

I pray that you find yourself too. Encourage yourself to go there. You learn so much in the silence and stillness. These moments that you are alone —are never to cause you pain but to bring you to His presence. A purposeful place we must learn to embrace. A peaceful place of real REST!

Are you ready to please God more. I am ready for that change in me. How about you?

With love,



Maybe I didn’t know what to do.
Maybe I didn’t know where to go.
Maybe I was too young and unmarried.
Maybe I didn’t complete my education.
Maybe the goals I set didn’t really pan out.

But one thing I know, is that when you were born you changed my world. I stared at you so much as love flooded my heart. You were so beautiful just like you are even now.
I didn’t know anything but what I had experienced as a child and I only hoped I could make it right and do good.

But that didn’t happen did it.
I made mistakes. And not just like a little but MANY.
Some were HUGE mistakes and I needed God in my life to fix it!!!
Even then, I still found myself making mistakes and it frustrated me even more.

Then I remembered His grace. None of us are perfect, no not one. We need a Savior. Someone to stand in the gap for us. And He gladly took on that position and made us WHOLE.

I remember in 2000, I petitioned to God after dropping you off at the bus stop. I treated you HORRIBLY because we were running late, and it was so not your fault. What you don’t know is that I came back home, crashed to the floor and cried profusely, deeply as my soul was in anguish. The same way it is now when I STILL make mistakes. And I am so sorry for all of that. Any hurt, frustration, disappointment or the like that I cause from being so imperfect.

Why can’t I be that perfect parent God—

He said, “BECAUSE YOU CANT BE ME! I am the perfect Parent.”

“They have all turned aside, They have together become corrupt; There is none who does good, No, not one.”
‭‭Psalms‬ ‭14:3‬ ‭NKJV‬‬

So I will love you with a flawed love but God will love us with a perfect love. I can’t ever promise you that I will be perfect, but I can promise you this… I will always seek Him for US knowing He will make all things new and all things right.

So in 2000 I sought Him for that guidance and it truly helped me tremendously for what I did daily changed to the most minimal incidents of ill behavior. I thank God for His Spirit and that He took it all away. May the presence of God pull you in that same place He took me then in 2000… and to where He takes me now.

All things work together and I know that is with ardent prayer. There can be no other way. So let’s pray.

May you always realize how much you impact my world which is why I hold your words and actions so powerfully because of the PLACE YOU HOLD in my heart and in my hands. That is why you were named that as a vessel to speak only life….  it means Prophetess.

I love you Cassiandra… will always be my baby girl.



Rebuilt: Beginning The Ending

img_9153Rebuilt: Beginning the Ending

Why Rebuilt? What’s it about?

Rebuilt is an inspirational piece comprised of 30 writings that help to build individuals back up.

There are three sections in the book.


If you are someone that has experienced a major life event that was traumatic, painful, of significant loss or suffering then this book is for you. If you are seeking a fresh start to life, this book will help walk you through day by day, as it includes 30 writings that focus on your new journey. Continue reading

Secret Place



1. done, made, or conducted without the knowledge of others.
2. kept from the knowledge of any but the initiated or privileged: “a secret password.”
3. faithful or cautious in keeping confidential matters confidential; close-mouthed; reticent.
4. designed or working to escape notice, knowledge, or observation.
5. secluded, sheltered, or withdrawn: “a secret hiding place.”
6. beyond ordinary human understanding; esoteric.

I have a place that is beyond human understanding, I don’t even know how I do it. He’s got me. I’m free to Him.

My plans–
Stay that way!

His plans–
Keep me there! Continue reading